Little moments........Well here's one. Mother's day is tomorrow, this day is always such a emotional day for me. It always has been. I lost my mother when I was eight, really seven turning eight the next month. It was quite sudden, so very unexpected. That was the first and only time I seen my dad cry. The following few years is really a blur for me, between all the babysitters, friends and family that I stayed with. I really don't remember feeling like I had a home. Looking back it really was like someone came and pulled the rug out from under our feet. We just went with the flow, but I don't remember ever crying or talking much about her. I remember going to the cemetary all the time. Then our life just became routine. Just the two of us. The thing is, we missed her so much. We seemed to put her memory in a glass box and we looked at it, but we never opened it up.
When I became a mother I couldn't keep that box closed any longer. I wished more than ever she was here to share these feelings with me, because only a mother can really understand another mother. I would like to think that she is the reason that I am the mother I am today.
My children are the most important things in my life, and I love them more than myself. I believe she has given me all my love and patience for life's up's and downs. I also must believe that she will give me the courage and strength to be the best person and mother I can be, even when life is so, so hard.
Mothers day really is everyday, because everyday we are the best mother's we can be.