Tuesday, June 15, 2010
What to do? What to do??
I have to make some pretty serious decisions....and I'm a little scared. For those of you who don't know me, I'm a single mom of three and my kids are still young enough to need daycare when my young teenager is not available. I was fortunate enough to be a stay at home mom with my eldest and most of my middle childs life, but things have changed and now I have to have a full income on my own. I am working 36hrs a week right now at a bank, but honestly I just don't make enough to pay a mortgage, daycare and everything else. Not to mention the sick days, holidays, running around making sure everyone is where they should be when I'm working.....I have an opportunity to start my own daycare business. I've looked at it at every angle and if I have three children full time or even part time school age I can afford to pay all my bills. The problem is, it's not a guaranteed job. I know people always need daycare, but things change, people loose their jobs, or get sick, or move, all kinds of things happen all the time. I'm so afraid of the uncertainty......But I would be able to stay at home and be here for my children, I would be able to be here for my youngest who is still not in school. I'm so sad that I'm missing him grow everyday that I'm at work away from him, and I would be here after school and they wouldn't have to worry about who is picking them up or who I would have to leave them with if they are not feeling well. As a mom it feels so right, but as a mom and the only adult making all the decisions I'm so afraid of making the wrong choice. I really wish I had a crystal ball that could tell me what the future holds. Some parts of me want to just jump in and take a chance. If it's meant to be it will be, but I also believe we do have some control over our destiny. So what to do?? What to do???